Adam: Half Man Half Amazing

fuxxdeluxx @ 2004-10-04T14:07:00

2004-10-04T18:20:38Z

It is amazing how everything in the past got erased so quickly. I am not ashamed
of what I have done. The friendship ended quickly but it is your loss, not mine.

Waiting for the comet to appear
A new beginning, far away from here
Start the countdown we’re going out in style
My adidas laced with cyanide

I think you know it’s too late
I’m flying fast forward, but not with you
To heaven’s gate, I’m rocketing skyward,
but not with you
Because when I go I’m gone forever
No, I will never come back

Tried to wait
Got on the rocket ship, but not with you
you're walking downhill
I’m going to heaven but not with you

Because when I go I’m gone forever
And I can never come back to you
It’s too bad that we couldn’t go together
But you couldn’t see the beautiful truth

Now the comet’s come and disappeared
A bunk bed ending for our last hurrah
My adidas laced with cyanide

Racist Joke Time!

2004-08-29T07:22:33Z

Yeah, I've been gone for awhile. Lets break the ice with a joke, shall we?

There was a white guy, a jew and a black guy sharing a plane. The plane started to have engine trouble and started to make a nose dive to the ground. The plane crashed straight in to hell. The three guys were lined up as Satan appeared from the fiery shadows. Satan began his introduction, "Welcome to hell, where your miserable soul will feast on misery and woe for all of eternity!" In the middle of his act a little demon appeared and tugged at his tail. "What, what is it?!?", Satan yelled. The Demon whispers in his ear. Satan throws up his hands and screams, "What another war?!? Ah hell, I am going to be busy." Satan turns to the three men and says, "Listen, hell is getting pretty full and I really don't have the time right now. I can never turn down a good deal so I have one for you. If you can give me five dollars I will send you to your favorite place with all of your friends." The white guy pulls out a wad of money and easily pays off satan. The white guy magically appears at his favorite bar with all of his friends. His friends can't believe what they are seeing. One stands up in shock and says, "what are you doing here? We thought you were dead. We were at your funeral just a few hours ago." The white guy replies, "Yeah, the devil made a deal with me and the two others. We just had to give him five bucks." The friend asks, "Well, what about the other two?" The white guy replies, " Hmm, well, last I heard the Jew had him down to $2.50 and the black guy was looking all over hell for a co-signer."

Yeah!!! Nothing like offensive jokes! Later, bitches!

I missed it so much!

2004-07-23T08:46:04Z

FACE DOWN ASS UP! THAT'S THE WAY I LIKE TO FUCK!

I'm getting my car back, bitches!

Made it back!

2004-07-15T21:13:00Z

whew, that was rough! I was fine till I hit Georgia. I couldn't stay awake. I kept on nodding off. I would fall asleep just by blinking. I am surprised I didn't plow my ass in to a tree or another car. After awhile no car would get near me. It was kind of funny. Hell no, I aint getting near that fucker! Tired and have to get to work but it's cool. It was totally worth it. I am glad she had a good time.

HOLY SHIT!

2004-07-14T19:20:29Z

This Guy Owns!

2004-07-14T17:16:41Z

fuxxdeluxx @ 2004-07-12T00:31:00

2004-07-12T04:31:10Z

It's Oreo the zombie kitty! She is doing a little better but she was in some bad shape. She still isn't out of the woods. I haven't seen her since tuesday. I was worried, especialy since it was friday night and still no sign. I finally seen her crawl up to the porch on Saturday afternoon. She was looking pretty bad. She was oozing pus out of her neck and had a really bad smell. I taken her to a 24 hour vet in Jacksonville. What happened was she was bit by a brown recluse. It happened some days before I discovered her. Her neck is in really bad shape. The venom ate at the skin and now there is a big dead chunk on her neck. It is really gross. The Vet did what she could and it cost me nearly $400. People have been telling me that they would just put the cat to sleep. I want to respond by saying, fuck you bitch! it's The O, no one fucks with The O. It's my cat, I'm not gonna just let her die because of $400. I can manage. I know things just got tough out of no where but I can make things happen, I can manage.

Speaking of managing, it is starting to get tough, My mom's bad health, almost $5,000 in debt out of no where, No car of my own anymore for awhile, My cat in bad health out of no where, my new health problem that I have told no one about, and just some other stuff. It all hit me hard yesterday at work. Dave is a great boss, he really helped me out yesterday. I almost feel guilty. I don't know why I feel guilty when people try to help me. I guess I feel like I am a bother. I hate being a bother. Things will eventually look up. I just have to take it one problem at a time and not get overwhelmed.

When it rains it pours

2004-07-09T04:52:04Z

I just spent $1,500 on my Blazer last Tuesday. I have to spend $2,500+ on it now because of my transmission. I don't have that kind of money. I am broke enough as it is. I can't work OT because I am on salary. I think I just might have to move out. I really don't want to but I might have to. Of course it continues when someone takes something the wrong way. I didn't mean anything by it, I just felt like being nice. That is just who I am. You didn't have to cause a scene, you didn't have to humiliate me. Damn, this seems to happen a lot. Blah blah blah, who cares? Damn, what a rough summer.

I feel really weird

2004-07-03T04:50:55Z

Whoa, this is kind of crazy. I Played tennis this afternoon for about three hours. I played pretty hard. When I got done my face was red like a really bad sunburn. I've been feeling really dizzy, my face has been feeling really hot. I drank a lot of water and when I got home I took a shower with nothing but cold water and kept my head under the shower flow. I still felt hot. The creepy thing is I went to Domino's to see if everything was ok at the store because it began to storm. I hung out there a little and started to feel worse. I blacked out for a few, made me drop to the ground. Ever since then my vision has been really blury off and on. It is really kind of strange. Time to try and sleep it off with my face planted in front of my huge ass fan.

Oh Canada!

2004-06-26T04:24:25Z

Heh, there is this girl who works in Brandon's store named Ashly who doesn't know why we celebrate "Fourth of July" I told her it was because of the great war between the United States and Canada for North Dakota. I told her we wanted their precious wheat and sweet, sweet grass that only North Dakota could provide. We celebrate our quick victory with the greatest war strategy ever. We attacked the french side first. She is 16 and believed it. I blame Yulee water.

Now to end on a joke:

How many kids with ADD does it take to screw in a light bulb?

Hey, lets go ride bikes!!

Update just to update.

2004-06-25T07:30:44Z

I am home run derby champion! I had to show everyone what was up with my 13 home runs! That's right, I own little league fields. 10 year olds tremble at my awesome power of owning. I am also excellent at winning watches. Brandon shares this trait as well. I won an all american watch from the machine at Shoney's. Brandon went the sexy chink route by winning a sleek looking womens watch that had some japanese stuff on it.

Tomorrow night might be a fine night for swimming. I have to try to go to the beach Saturday. Went to the beach with April the other day. The water was perfect. I think I seen a shark. April was freaked out but it didn't bother me. Later a jellyfish came by my way. I was waving my arms and screaming like a madman. Those bitches don't play.

It has been a pretty nice week. Hanging out with friends made me feel a little better. I do feel a lot better about the situation that happened a few weeks ago. It's done, the results happened, no hard feelings. It is time to move on. It's all cool now on this end.

off day tomorrow

2004-06-17T05:22:52Z

I think tomorrow will be a great day for either Baseball, chillin at the beach, or plowing down 8 year olds at the waterslide.

What a Jackass

2004-06-16T05:10:42Z

The mother of a boy who was nearly knocked over when a man leaped for a foul ball says she was shocked that the man didn't give her son the ball.

The incident happened in the third inning of Sunday's Texas Rangers game against the St. Louis Cardinals when Gary Matthews Jr. lifted a foul ball into the stands at Ameriquest Field in Arlington, Texas.

A man went tumbling to get the baseball and nearly knocked over 4-year-old Nicholas O'Brien. The boy's mother, Eddie O'Brien, was not happy about it as she whacked the man with her program before he managed to escape back to his seat. Texas Rangers broadcaster Tom Grieve was also not impressed.

"Yeah, you got the ball, buddy. Nice going, you took it away from a little kid. Hold it up, you should be real proud of yourself," Grieve said during the televised broadcast. "Go to a sporting goods store and buy a dozen baseballs if you want them that bad."

"You know, there is a jerk in every park, and there is the biggest jerk in this park," Grieve said while the camera was focused on the man.

Little Nicholas proved to come out the winner in the end, as other kids gave him baseballs. Even better, the Cardinals' Reggie Sanders, who was watching the game in the clubhouse, came out and gave the boy a baseball and a bat.

The Texas Rangers also gave the boy a shirt, cap, tickets, a signed Nolan Ryan baseball, and an autographed Kevin Mench bat.

"I was just shocked that this man had jumped over all of us just for a ball, and he wouldn't move. He was determined to keep the ball, and he didn't seem to care who he hit. I was just amazed at the crowd -- their support, to be honest, it was amazing," the boy's mother said.

"The ball had come down ... and it landed at Eddie's feet. He was laying crossways in the aisle on the ground, and he had the bottom half of the ball, and I had the top half ... and I realized that the longer I wrestled with it, the longer he was going to be there," the boy's father, Jeff O'Brien, said.

Other fans were chanting for the man to "give the boy the ball"... The man kept the ball all to himself and reportedly left the game after the fourth inning.

What a jackass. It was nice to see kids catching foul balls and being more of a man than that jerk by giving the four year old the ball. It was really nice to see the profession baseball players step up and make a once bad day very special for that boy and his parents.

HAHAHA TOO MUCH FUN!

2004-06-14T19:13:50Z

I am playing with one of those text to talk things. This flash player girl talks what you type. Here is the site.

http://www.oddcast.com/sitepal/

click on text to talk then do the try now.

It is fun hearing things in a hot british accent. It is especealy fun to hear made up raps like this.

My name is Adam Miller
You'll know my name when I pull that trigger
kill your boy and your best nigger
my bank account gets bigger and bigger.

or fun making up a voice mail.

Hello, Adam is away right now. He is with me and my friends at a photo shoot. After the shoot we will have a tickle fight. Adam is a swell and hot guy.

I am amused easy.

fuxxdeluxx @ 2004-05-17T07:56:00

2004-05-17T12:03:18Z

With the big windows up front, ovens blowing hot air, and all the heat racks on, it can get warm during the summer in Domino's. Saturday night that place was hot. A lot of us were chillin in the back. We had some pretty good speakers hooked up to the new cd player back there. I decided it was time for a dance party, It was Me, Joe, Hamilton, Teresa, and the two twins, Joselyn and Tianna. I had to get my Lil John cd because nothing gets a dance party going like Yeah! It was pretty cool, especially when Joselyn wanted to show us how to booty dance. That girl can get low! It went on for a couple of hours. Everyone had a good time. Hamilton about freaked out when his cell phone range. "Everyone who isn't a dude, shut up! Hey baby, I am just getting off work. Give me a few minutes and I will call you back I promise. Bye, love you. Alright, I got to go." Then he races out of the store. Awww, Hamilton is in love. It was nice, everyone had a blast.

The two people who read my journal should know about April. I am still weirded out. SHe really didn't know me but she did hate me a lot. Now she talks to me all the time whenever she has a problem. It is cool cause everyone needs someone to escape to but at the same time she vents about Brandon to me. It is cool, I have no problems being there for her. It just seems alitte strange. I talked to her last night for awhile after her 5th bad day in a row. She said she is glad we talk. She always feels a lot better after our conversations. It is nice to be able to laugh and have someone who listens and talks back, she said. She said I make her feel good no matter how bad the day. That actually made me feel a lot better. With this worthless feeling I have been getting it is nice to have someone tell me something they find good about me. It is the first time someone has taken time out for no reason to tell me something positive about myself in a long time. I hope her and Brandon work it out, She is a wonderful person.

Goin on a llama hunt

2004-05-14T01:55:02Z

Tonight was horrible. I am in a really bad mood. Work was awful and some girl I know is getting hurt by someone way older than her because she is very niave and he knows that. There is one thing that might cheer me up. I found out today there is a mutant llama around here! It his two heads! Get this, one of his heads is one of his legs! His leg is the neck and his foot is the head! The leghead is alive! it eats! How crazy is this??!? I got to see it. I hope it is still there. John said it has been two years since he last seen it. Charlie said he took his son to see it about the same time. I can't wait!

It needs to get warmer. I really feel like swimming.

A long post??

2004-05-12T08:18:00Z

Tonight April came by to see me at work. That was kind of surprising. We talked for a good while. It started to get kind of personal. I was surprised but she was very open and gave me honest opinions and tried to help. Of course when she heard the full detail of my main problem and why it is so hard she just came up with the conclusion that that may be the most tragic situation she has heard. It's a double edged sword. I know the answer but one day I have to do something before it is too late.

She really wanted to come over and hang out. I was cool with that. Lesson #1, keep your goddamn room clean just in case a girl decides to come over! It was cool, and it got cleaned. She was digging Michael Jackson. She went nuts when she seen the Number Ones DVD. We watched that a bit. I thought me and my Brother were the only big MJ fans left around here. In the last year I met two huge MJ fans who are girls! Huge surprise for me. He is innocent, don't be hatin'.

Funny thing is April use to hate me. I mean she use to really, really hate me. I played too much when I first met here. I made it my goal for her to see the real me and the many faces of Adam. I guess it worked, she said she was surprised but she really does like me a lot now. You just got to give me a chance, I guess. I don't think I am that bad of a guy, but sometimes I wonder.

One side note: I am very worried about something. I don't know how to play it. Sometimes I get scared to get involved because I am not sure how that person sees me. I don't want to drive them away but I do want to help. My emotional train of thought can be really weird sometimes. It can also really hold me back. Longest entry I have done in awhile for the three people who read it. Much more to say but I will cut it for now. Good night

fuxxdeluxx @ 2004-05-09T02:23:00

2004-05-09T06:38:00Z

I found Bitters a woman! She hates to play and she hates me.

FuxxDeLuxx: I am cool! don't let those damn fish fool you
FuxxDeLuxx: I will throw a brick at them
ariana4982: :glares wairly:
FuxxDeLuxx: checking out the goods?
FuxxDeLuxx: what is wrong with pisces? I am better than the average pisces
FuxxDeLuxx: they want to be me but can't
FuxxDeLuxx: so they take it out on you
FuxxDeLuxx: I will hit them
ariana4982: ariana4982: thats what the average pician would say
FuxxDeLuxx: but I made a sandwich
FuxxDeLuxx: and it was grand
FuxxDeLuxx: and I am rad
FuxxDeLuxx: and I should own a shovel
ariana4982: uh huh
FuxxDeLuxx: you should loke me!
FuxxDeLuxx: I mean like me
ariana4982: no you should have a rake
ariana4982: i dont know you buddy
FuxxDeLuxx: you should
ariana4982: know you or like you?
FuxxDeLuxx: both
ariana4982: brick
ariana4982: ?
FuxxDeLuxx: you shouldn't
FuxxDeLuxx: plus my AIM is going wacky
ariana4982: wacky
ariana4982: wacky
ariana4982: wacky
FuxxDeLuxx: like a nightmare
FuxxDeLuxx: I want a rocketcar!
FuxxDeLuxx: I want alot of things
ariana4982: obviously
FuxxDeLuxx: I want you to like me
FuxxDeLuxx: That was nice!
ariana4982: but you confuse me soo much
FuxxDeLuxx: but you can help
FuxxDeLuxx: for just pennies a day
FuxxDeLuxx: you can be rad like me
ariana4982: no thanx
FuxxDeLuxx: you sure, think of kids starving to be rad
FuxxDeLuxx: so you shouldn't give up on me
ariana4982: humm
FuxxDeLuxx: I have dreams
FuxxDeLuxx: they have talking pelicans in them and they drive go karts. Then they ask me to be their valentine. They were going to ask you untill they found out you hate me
ariana4982: you are so very strannge
FuxxDeLuxx: is that bad?
ariana4982: dunno depends on how deep the strangeness runs
FuxxDeLuxx: I don't fuck cows or anything like that
ariana4982: well thats good theres on fear down
FuxxDeLuxx: wanna hear the best song ever?
(jenelle plays)
ariana4982: thats terrible
FuxxDeLuxx: it was awesome!!
FuxxDeLuxx: because it was real
ariana4982: real lame
FuxxDeLuxx: I am about to lame your face
ariana4982: pah!

Does Adam Miller have to choke a bitch

2004-05-02T07:50:09Z

First off, I need to apologize to the people who were at my house when the incident happened. I feel like a jackass. I should have controlled myself better. I really want to apologize to Maryam for doing that in front of her friends. I am sorry for the awkwardness.

This is what happened. Bitters walked in and asked why everyone was dressed up. Laughing and saying in a playful manner I said for your mom. Innocent and meant nothing by it. He got mad and threaten me with a knife. Pulled it out and everything. Hell no, that pussy is not going to get away with that. I told him strait up that he is being a hypocrite. He says dumbass mom jokes all the time to me and I just laugh. And you will not threaten me with a weapon. I got mad and told him his intimidation shit will not work on me. I will beat his ass all over the place. Something I would not have any problems doing. He did apologize but fuck it. I am not even going to be fake nice to him anymore. Work will be hell for him, that is damn sure. If he doesn't quit in a week or two I just might have to fire his ass. Talking to him won't even be an option. I'm not going to live with a bitter old nutcase like that. This has got me beyond angry. Anyway, I am really sorry, Maryam. Like I said, I should have handled that differently in front of your friends. Again, I am sorry. I do feel very bad.

fuxxdeluxx @ 2004-04-28T23:58:00

2004-04-29T04:07:47Z

Oh Internet! Internet, you look so good with that mouse!
Why don't you give me lots of porn?
Wrong! I don't think so Adam.
You want me to do things to you like the ass and the boobs.
Idiot.
I don't have time. I have too many broke.

This mouse better work! so far so good.

fuxxdeluxx @ 2004-04-28T12:40:00

2004-04-28T16:43:30Z

This is the third week working out with Joe. We are still on it strong. It is nice to see results. Monday I did two reps on the bench press of what I couldn't do two weeks ago. Today I was able to do 720lbs twice and 810 once on the leg press. The machine doesn't go any higher. From the way it felt I know I could do more. I am also losing weight. That is always a plus. The soreness has stopped for the most part. Now I just get a tight feeling on the muscles. Don't let my size full you. My endurance is pretty good. I was able to do over 6 miles in 20 minutes on the bike with endurance level 10. That is uphill the whole time. It's just nice to see results. It keeps the motivation up. If we keep this pace up in three or four months I should start showing the results significantly.

Fallen Soldiers

2004-04-23T18:02:53Z

Pat Tillman, a former NFL player who left his multi million dollar job behind to join the Army Rangers after September 11th, was killed today while serving time in Afghanistan. Looking over many boards I noticed a lot of people expressing their sorrows and sympathy for the fallen soldier. If you are for the war our not, you should take time to remember all of those who have laid down their lives. There are some good people who sacrificed a lot. This is something a little personal to me as my brother in law prepares himself to enter the warzone in Iraq. He didn't join the armed forces for his beliefs. He joined for a more secure and prosperous future for my sister and their two children. I am sure most of us have family or friends who will be effected by this in some way.

"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends."

fuxxdeluxx @ 2004-04-23T01:35:00

2004-04-23T05:47:20Z

I really love my friendships I have. It is a small core of close friends but that is the way I like it. Every one of my friends are very unique and easy going. Everyday I learn something new about my friends. It is a great experience to explore and learn about these wonderful people. There is something special about each and every one of them and I would not trade them for anything. They should know who they are. Ha, emo again on here but I got nothing but love these last view weeks. I just realized some things. Just got to sit back and have some fun.

I call Batman to the stand

2004-04-16T08:25:12Z

Random insomniac thought

When it comes to Batman or Superman, a lot of times they are the only witness to crimes. They are also usually the only one to solve the crime. Why is it they never testify in court? Even the Joker has the right to a fair trial. Maybe that is why supervillians never see any hard time. They are always out the next week getting in to trouble. Oh, and a press hat and glasses is the worst cover up ever. How come no one figured out who Superman was? People were dumb back then.

I want to learn to play tennis. There also might be a huge shake up around here in the next few weeks.

fuxxdeluxx @ 2004-04-15T05:34:00

2004-04-15T09:50:03Z

Yesterday was a beautiful day and there was no better way to spend it than at the ballpark watching a minor league game. It was nice to see the Suns take on the Greenville Braves on a 65 degree day. Just chillin, watching a game with your friends, eating a hotdog. The Suns won 8-2. It was so nice we even stuck around to watch a little of the college baseball game that was played afterwards. Edward Waters College vs SCAD. I didn't even know SCAD had a baseball team. Now if I can just catch a hockey game before the season is over. The Barracudas are in the Championship so I only have three opportunities left at the most. Looking at Alltel Stadium made me miss football season and going to the games. The schedule came out today. We have a home primetime game against the Steelers. That should be a blast.